Light At the End of the Tunnel

Do I dare spill the beans?? I think this horrible nausea/vomitting "episode" is easing. PHEW! I can honestly say that it was the worse thing I have been though......and I have not been through a lot in life either. ....labor and delivery is gonig to be fun! ha! It's not that simple vomitting is horrible, it's just the marathon of weeks on end of extream tiredness, weakness, vomitting, nausea and not knowing when it will end. I think if I knew by "x-date" it would end, the mental and emotional break downs would have been less. Granted everyone/everything I've read stated "12-14 weeks" but it's always different for everyone. I am now 13.5 weeks and actually feel like I can get up and do a load of dishes or laundry and not pass out, puke my guts up or have to take a 4 hour recovery session on the couch. Today (fingers crossed) I feel good enough that I have started packing up our lovely apartment to move to our new house the first week of november. Last week just packing 4 boxes put me on the couch for 4 hours. Today, I've done 4 boxes and felt like I've done nothing. Praise God!

I have not felt the baby move yet or have heard the heart beat. I have been listening religously (in private) at work with my stethescope but nothing. We do not use a dopplar device at the clinic so I do not have that option either. Maybe next week during our OB appointment we'll get to hear the heart beat. Maybe that will make this expirence more "real." So far, besides the first trimester "symptoms," I dont FEEL pregnant. Although I have gone out and bought some marternity clothes for our cruise in December. Who'd of thunk it that Old Navy would have good looking, inexspensive maternity shorts! Amazing.